Going through changes…

As with all things, change happens.  In pursuit of the remanifestation of the self, certain objectives have to be met.

On the verge of my last four days of full-time employment and a week away from a relocation and new home, I have not been able to prioritise posts here.  Time is short and my esoteric research and philosophical thought has been directed into other works that are long standing projects.

Winston Churchill once said, “when going through hell, keep going”.  Such a quote is currently appropriate to the chaos and complications of a house move in England, a change in work role, and a change in family situation as we move to a more family-centric setting.  The added bonus is that I have a chance to create a new outward persona for public consumption and also gain time to work on my occult philosophic pursuits.

Ultimately, I will blog more after the relocation and the blogs may also include some minor sections from larger projects.  I will see what information I deem suitable to share.  It is important not to share the keys to nuclear physics with a rabid-monkey after all.

I have however rediscovered brief moments to create art.  I will share the occasional piece here.

The first piece of art is titled:Ragnarok — the remanifestation begins

Ragnarok -- the remanifestation begins, by Asruthr Cyneathsson

Ragnarok — the remanifestation begins, by Asruthr Cyneathsson

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Further remanifestations

March 2015 is proving to truly be the time of new growth.  Regardless of the mechanistic cycles of Vanaheim, the flow of my Wyrd is such that odd years always prove to be the seasons of growth.  

During this month we have identified the secure future for my family, secured employment for my wife and I have formally notified my employer of my pending retirement.  To retire from the herd at the age of 34 is itself a remanifestation of my functional physicality within this realm.  The time I gain will be donated to the task of inspiring and educating my daughter whilst furthering my theory and pursuit of my philosophical theory of oneness.  My growth as a LHP adept will accelerate towards its full potential.  I grasp now the realisation of what reality is more than ever and control it in accordance with my will.  If you take offence at such, then that is your weakness.  A strong conscious mind would not allow my perception to alter your own.  This is my world and I am the Lord of my world. 

The next task is to secure a suitable home for my family in which I can further my tasks and also host small groups of others whom have engaged the pursuit of their potential for being.  I will also further my reputation as a reader of tarot and runes, offer myself for exorcisms and pursue the finalisation of my theories and their publication.  I will likely Lao combine my pursuits with the actions of a paranormal investigation as I seek to find proof to support my theories and demonstrate my skills at exorcisms and banishings.  I fear no demon or spirit for I have realised their nature as my own. 

Services for banishings, exorcisms, readings and protection spells are available throughout the north west of England. 

Yule time turning

Yule is upon us. The darkness envelopes me like a comforting blanket or the arms of a lover. Within the darkness lays limitless potential. Light happens, darkness is eternal. As Jung discussed, it is within the darkness that we find the things we do not yet know. To illuminate and know the darkness is the true task of philosophy.

Odd numbered years under the common system are typically more beneficial for my family and myself. In the past we have purchased our own home, married and seen the birth of our daughter in odd years. Even years are generally a mixed harvest. 2014 has been a year of becoming. There has been dissolution on an unprecedented scale. My work environment has changed. My mother passed in May. I have ceased work with local pagan groups. Through the process of a spiritual death, destruction and analysis of the soul– there comes a remanifestation. Thanks to the venom of the dragon Nidhogg I have seen my life torn apart. It is as a direct result of this that I have realised the value of all things. My wife and daughter matter most. I will defend them with my essence. Philosophy has become the clear goal — to illuminate the darkness and find answers that lead to the truth. I must question all things. My will has been solidified. I value myself and realise the potential that now has been awakened within. The cranial exhaust is running hot as I turn to ever increasingly difficult subjects. No more will I conform to playing the role that others seek me to do so for their own benefit. Like the Jungian riverbed, the water has began to flow and once more the mighty flow of my mind will dominate and rise above my environment. As does the water, I will weave the path of least resistance. I will erode the obstacle before me. The fire that burns within is the mighty forge flame on which I remake myself.

As the lyrics of Grand Magus state:

At last there’s a reason to believe
To rise from the depths of misery
My heart clad in iron
My soul clad in steel
The triumph and power achieved

2014 is the year of death.

2015 is the year of rebirth. With a new role at work, a new goal in pursuit of my own potential and a master plan for the family — it is now that I know what the coming year holds. There are plans of which I cannot speak. There exist goals of which I cannot speak. There is also much that I have yet to realise and come to know. I have made the oath and set forth my wyrd for the coming year. My goal is clear. 2015 is the year to arise as per the occult symbolism of the phoenix. I will crush, devour and burn all those that stand in my way as if Napoleon himself had been invoked within me. I have dwelt within the darkness and it has become illuminated for me in the light of my own black flame. I am not the being many perceive. Some see more than others. Very few see the whole. The wheels have already been began to revolve. By October, 2015 nothing shall be the same.

Through knowledge, true knowledge that is, we may come to see the very patterns that underly the manifestation of the universe. I see the flow of wyrd before me and know that I can shape my own path within the pattern of the Norn in accordance with their overall work. Such constructive flow ensures that my own path meets little resistance from that of others. Manipulation of the currents of being is thus enabled. Through the control of chaos, I may manifest the occurrence of events and matter in accordance with my will. Is such not the true goal of the conscious mind? Did the Allfather not ascend to the throne through the assertion of his will to control the chaos? Through ordering the chaos then we can control that which manifests and thus predict the future in accordance with the patterns laid down in the past. Nietzsche’s theory of the eternal recurrence dictates that I am likely to have existed and to do so again. Such materialisation of being also increases the potential that this is not the first time I have proceeded to walk the path that I have now placed before me.

Ask yourself what is your pattern? What do you see from the events of your life that dictates a pattern before you? Once you can identify the pattern —  you can predict and influence it. Through your influence, you take control and become the primum movens.

Does this post matter to you, the reader? To be honest I do not care. In the form of making an oath into the web of wyrd for 2015, I cast forth this form as an oath into the web of the internet. This post is merely a statement of intent. You may or may not realise the impact and changes that I am about to bring upon the world and you may witness them in some form. Though they are not at the level of the Red Magus. I truly now will emerge as a Black Magus.

I am coming.

The enjoyment of life

It has been a year of huge changes for me. Family deaths, workplace restructuring and a new role at work are the least of the changes I have seen. Seeds have been planted that will see fruits in 2015. I play the long game in many ways.

I sat this night reflecting upon how my valuation upon certain things has changed. Not only has my daughter grown up substantially, but we have firm plans as a family for the first time in a long time. My own internal changes are even more prevalent.

I have ceased watching sports of any sort. I don’t even follow the sports news. More importantly, I have ceased watching television for the large part. I partake only of a couple of hours a week for programmes I enjoy viewing with my wife.

My love of music has returned. Having rediscovered the love of Black and Doom Metal that fuelled my teenage years I spend more time listening to music than on any other activity. Opera, Classical, Doom, Black, Progressive-black, folk, rock — pretty much every type of classical or rock based music is on my iPod and throughly enjoyed. As a reference I’ll list my current favourites: Grand Magus, Ihsahn, Ghost BC, Emperor, Bathory and My Dying Bride.

My true passion though is for reading and writing. Reading philosophy, psychology and occult (as a wide spread umbrella term) texts is fuelling my inner development and also inspiring the work that I am writing. Having published my first book based largely upon the journey this blog captures, I currently find myself working on what will form my second and third books concurrently.

The love of the written word and music fit together so well. I dins a mirror for much of my own mind within the works of Nietzsche, Ihsahn, Jung and Grand Magus. I find inspiration and new meaning with every page and note so that my flame dances with the energy of life. I am empowered with creative energy and thought. I have embraced so much in 2014 that it is almost a year of my coming into being. 2009 was the year of my reconception. 2014 is the year of my rebirth. Here I am.

Mental muscle

Like a bodybuilder must strain a muscle that it may tear and repair stronger; the mental athlete must strive to challenge the brain. Through continued application to difficult tasks and the search for knowledge and truth, it is possible to develop ones mind.

and so it begins…again

In each moment- we live and die to be reborn. As cells die, we are not in the same body we were a few moments ago.

As we experience things for the first time- we are forever changed.

Life is full of initiation and remanifestation.

 

Today, I find myself having no living parent in this realm. I also find myself in the company of those that share similar philosophies and approaches to myself. My world is not as it was 14 days ago. I am not as I was and never will be again. I am all I can be in this moment, but tomorrow I will be more than now- ever working towards all that I can be.

Life is fleeting- death is eternal for some.

Light happens- darkness is eternal.