Over the weekend I approved the proof of my first book. Based largely upon the early days of this blog, the content requires little description here.
What did strike me however was the astounding pace of the evolution of my mind in theological and philosophical matters. In four years I have defined my own beliefs and searched for my gods. I have also evolved beyond the need to belong and realised that I must not adapt my thoughts in order to fit with a system of heathenry. Accepting my views as varying to those of many- the true value comes in realising that my convictions are enough for me to wager that I alone am correct. Only the gods will tell me otherwise.
Amazingly through this final dawning of theological strength, it is now that I find myself amongst those strong enough to place no value upon the judgments of others against their views. I have been accepted amongst a few who share many of my beliefs but also accept that my gods differ. I will learn and evolve further before one day finding myself truly alone in my beliefs and philosophy. I will be ready to be accepted as one of my gods at that time. That will be a good day to die…
We are in an age where the warrior is not as he was. No longer can a man choose his battles or his lord. The battle is as much one of the will as one of war- different warriors excel in each.
Is a warrior of will any less than a soldier in an army? A warrior of will at least is always accountable to himself. The soldier has a job to do and must fulfil it or be tried for treason- agreement with the cause is not an option in today’s armed forces.
There can be no just war where both sides believe that god is on their side- or perhaps the battle. What if that god is one whom benefits from the harvest of the battle fallen.
The time has come to move on. I will allow my memberships of both the Troth and the Kith of Yggdrasil to lapse.
The Kith has become very inactive over the last six months and no longer issues periodicals or organises events as previously which made the organisation worthy of membership.
As for the Troth- it would seem to me that each year takes the organisation further from its roots and towards being little more than a liberal union for those needed the approval of others. I have no need of such and so with appreciation for the lore and research that they have provided such a great base of, I move on towards the fulfilment of my own destiny.
I have joined a group which allows me to be an individual and complete my work. There is no more to be said.
In each moment- we live and die to be reborn. As cells die, we are not in the same body we were a few moments ago.
As we experience things for the first time- we are forever changed.
Life is full of initiation and remanifestation.
Today, I find myself having no living parent in this realm. I also find myself in the company of those that share similar philosophies and approaches to myself. My world is not as it was 14 days ago. I am not as I was and never will be again. I am all I can be in this moment, but tomorrow I will be more than now- ever working towards all that I can be.
Life is fleeting- death is eternal for some.
Light happens- darkness is eternal.